The days have passed very fast. Sometimes I find myself wondering even if the earth has rotated faster than normal. See, we are already closing the month of September! (When I was younger it didn’t seem like time ran as fast as it does today).
Unlike other days, I will not post text about exhortations or my theological reflections. I’m going to talk about suicide. This is a much discussed theme in this “yellow september” that it is used to make people aware of something that can sometimes be happening under our eyes without we seeing it.
Many brothers who read my texts here may have already seen that I was, in fact, recently converted. That before I was an atheist and denied the existence of God for some years. What few know is that I had a moment of depression in my life and some thoughts of death came to mind at that time. However, this is not unique to atheists. Depression is not a lack of God, as I see many believers saying all the time. I have seen people very used by God go into crises of deep sadness, what is very painful.
Trying to explain what I felt: Depression is a feeling of loneliness, even in the midst of crowds. It feels like in nothing and for anyone we are useful. It is the thought that the world has suffered in sadness and there is no joy or meaning in life. Your body feels heavy and tired even after a good night’s sleep. In short, it’s like being in a dark room with no doors or windows where there is no reason to continue living.
It was the worst time of my life. However, I wore for months the mask of someone happy and excited to try to hide the pain from myself and the people around me.
It’s been a while, but if you ask me, my own family was surprised and gaping when I revealed to them these days that I thought of suicide at a certain point in my life.
God changed my life, it’s true, made his light shine through the darkness I was in. Today I have no signs of the depression I once had. And for God’s glory, I’m here sending this message through a blog that reaches so many people.
But unfortunately not so with everyone. Therefore, I ask that everyone be always aware of the people around you. Practice Christian love and care for the people next to you! Ask and dedicate your time to everyone. There is nothing sadder than knowing that Christ gave someone his life and his joy and that person could not see because she is so deep in sadness.
To you who haven’t been happy
Although many see it as a foolishness. I’m here, in first person, to say it’s not. I understand how difficult it is and how sometimes there seems to be no way out. I understand what it is like to not see joy in anything you do and think about taking your own life. And I know the feeling of loneliness and how these things hurt. You cannot feel love even though you are trying to show it all the time. And it feels even worse, as if it was kind of ingratitude that you can’t feel that love.
Even with many saying this all the time, I will ask you not to give up and give yourself a chance to seek help. The love of Jesus is available to you and he expects absolutely nothing in return. It doesn’t matter what you have done or who you are. Someone died in your place so that you could have life in abundance! Jesus took on our infirmities and carried our sorrows (Isaiah 53:4; Matthew 8:17)
Life! Do not be afraid!
Any feeling contrary to life comes not from God but from the evil one. And if you have so far resisted the lies that are told by Satan in your ears about you not being good enough or loved, consider yourself a winner. After all, if you have come this far and are reading this text, it is because Christ is trying to show you that He has restored in you the bond of love with God, who created everything there is, including you! And only a bond of love such as that of Christ prevents people from giving up their lives, for it is in Him that all the perfection of love resides.
Jo 10:10 The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.
Thank you for your GOD’s words and encouragement to pursue in life no matter how hard it is to walk in time of depths and sorrows
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Having lived through depression for many years i also know what it is like to have a dark cloud hanging over you day in day out and im glad that God has me in His hands on those days of anxiety and stress. Cast all your burdens upon Christ for He cares for you. How i pray for all those who despair and suffer in silence, Lord hold them also in your loving arms and grant them joy in their lives.
Thank you so much for that word. I kind of stumbled on it this morning for the first time. I am going through a very tough time. In the beginning of the year I had to give up my job and move from New Jersey to Virginia. I didn’t have much money save and I have found a job yet, therefore bthe bills are piling up. I get frustrated sometimes, but I am trying bto hold on to !y faith So again thanks you.
Thank you for the timely word❤❤❤
How to let it go if your partner cheated on you and how to forgive as a christian
Thank you be blessed very pwful
Thank you for the message.It will helo me how to overcome sadness in my heart.
Thank you my I lost 💔😭 teo children I know there in heaven but I love them and Satan is trying to make me feel 😭 quilt
Thank you so much for your kind and loving words. Exactly what I needed to read and feel today. God bless you and your callings. May God be with you as you carry this beautiful message everywhere the word is going. So proud of you and thank you so much.
Thank you for sharing and spreading the word of God
I was divorced last year because of a rumor from someone that I wad having an afair with her husband, which was not true. Thst was a part of the cause, the other was alcohol. I tried to stop and he would just bring in more
He comes around and we get along do well like we are best friends and he tells me that. But I did think about ending my life
When I get depressed I ask God to help me overcome that feeling. So thank you so very much, needed this post today.💛🙏
Thank you for sharing ❤️
Aman brother everything u said is so true I myself have been battling depression and PTSD I have lost to sons that now thanks to gods Grace I will see in glory again .in Christ I have found peace and a love for people I never had I was a Wiccan for most of my life then after the death of my oldest son I found God and he lifted me up from the pits and saved me blessings to you and your work for God
Just the title alone saved the day for me… GOD BLESS YOU brother
My heart just keeps thanking you and thanking you. God bless you
I loved this blog.
This is so transparent and what goes on in the lives of even Christian’s.
I’d like to reccomend neil t Anderson’s “victory over the darkness” and ” the bondage breaker”, he is part of freedom in CHRIST ministries…. changed my life. GOD bless you all church family!!!
I most definitely needed this today.
This just come to me at the right time, the whole year I have been expecting God to give me a rest from all I’m going through, I won’t finish to list them here! And today is the last week of September with a mask on still all I need is strength from above I’m still trusting God. I started feel heavy in my spirit, things never been well at all not only this year but for many years
My dear it is well, there is always light at the end of the tunnel. Every trouble, sorrows etc have expiry date and I pray that God will bring you out from them all and give you joy and peace in Jesus name. Amen. Just hold on.
To our, to my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, Sovereign Creator, thank You for creating each beautiful day so that we, so that I may seek You and find You. In YOU we have, I have true hope.You, Lord Jesus are the only source of hope, a hope that will never fail us, fail me in this lost world that we live in.
I enjoy you blog, thank you. By the way, if you think the world is spinning fast now, just hang on tightly because it really spins at 60 😎.
I struggle overy dad getting remarried so soon. My mom suddenly died last year, and he already is planning to get remarried and then move. It’s hard for me, it all happened so fast. It’s really thrown me into a deep depression hole, a mix of grief, anger, and sadness. I have even thought of suicide to just escape it all, and foolishly, to get back at my dad. I know I shouldn’t, I know it’s dumb, but I feel trapped and angry at him and his girlfriend.
I guess it was God that this post popped up. I read through the whole thing. Please keep me in prayer. I dont know if im allowed to ask for that or not.
God please have mercy and show this sister your love.
Hi! My name is Rebecca. I do believe firmly believe that Christ Jesus is my strength. All I ask is for prayer. I struggle with my husband having an attitude about wanting his way about things off and on and it’s really upsetting me to no end. My health is not good and sometimes it’s all I can do to function. When I tell him I am not up to it he gets mad and says I never do anything he wants to do. It makes me miserable to no end. I pray and ask God why, what have I done to deserve this behavior of his. He is fine when he gets what he wants but what about my feelings? I feel like I don’t matter or unloved.
Hi. I understand what you going through but believe me God can change your husband. I use to be like that with my wife and Jesus changed me. I’m so happy now because I’m a better man now in Christ. I will keep you in prayer and refer to Psalm 37 verse 5.
I really appreciate this blog cause even now while I’m at work I feel the Holy Spirit talking to me thru this blog… Glory be to God Almighty
Definitely depression is a medical condition and without god is impossible to survive
Amen. God is awesome
To God be the glory ,for his son Jesus Christ. Almighty God is good all the time.
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Praise God. God’s healing hands be upon us all. ❤️
AMEN! THANK You JESUS❤
God bless you for this piece. What got me is the Restoration in the Bond of Love with God… thank you, cos this is timely for me…
This is a great sharing. Indeed depression is often times overlooked but we should really look out for others. And one truth is that peace,joy and love are found in christ Jesus.
This has given understanding depression and suicidal thoughts. What is imminent is the LOVE of Jesus that encompasses us and made us who we are now
Amen. I really needed this. Been feeling really down lately like there’s no hope. Funny how I was just dwelling on negative thoughts in my mind when this notification popped up on my screen.Thank you very much.
I needed to read this. The part about being sad and wearing masks touched me the most. I thank God because He loves me and that’s what matters
Wow so full of clarity after reading this
Yes, and ALL AMEN TO JESUS..
THE GOD OF LIFE IS THE GOD OF ALL HUMAN BEING..
WHATEVER STATE EMOTION WE ARE..JESUS LOVE US AND DIED FOR YOU AND ME SO WE MAY LIVE IN PEACE AND JOY IN THE UNITY OF THE FATHER, THE SON AND THE SPIRIT WHO DWELLS WHO LOVE AND OBEY THEM….
DEPRESSION IS REAL BUT THE LOVE AND GRACE OF GOD IS POWERFUL ENOUGH TO HOLD US ALL TOGETHER…HELP US ALL TO SEE WE ARE NOT ALONE..
Thank you for sharing
Thank you for this post it really helps me relate to your situation and to others that I know who took their own life due to depression. I wasn’t aware of the signs and as to how it goes until it shook me up about the news that a relative and some good friend of mine commit suicide. At this point of my life I feel the same way and it feels like every single one surrounds against me. Then I found your piece of Golden Heart saying “Do not give up”. I have read and absorb this content and to realize that our life goes on and on with Jesus. I’ll keep that in mind and follow the righteousness of Jesus.
Really a blessing when I’m about to give up. Glory be to God.
That was a awesome testimony pass the Lord God bless